Everyday I hope..

A bitchy post. If you don't mind, read on.


If you're reading this, then it shall be a secret between you and me.


Don't you ever think life is like a cycle. From bad times to good times and then back to bad times again. It never stops you know? How lonely can one be? How hated can one get? Sometimes I feel like the whole world hates me and then it would be like before when the whole world really did hate me.

I really didn't know what I did to make you feel that way. You guys laughed at me, made fun of me, made me feel so small. Heck, did you know what was the worst? Pretending to be my friend and then saying to me "I don't really like you actually, I was just pitying you." There was a time when we were actually friends. Real friends. But then you had to ruin it. That's why I don't really want to hang out with you guys anymore. Everytime you ask me to go out, I would always think twice.


But that isn't the issue now. I got over that a long time ago. I found friends. Real friends. Or so I thought. How many friends do I have now? 20? 25? How many close friends do I have now? 3? 5? 7? Referring to another group of people, are you guys really my friends? Am I someone you guys cherish? Or am I just a someone whom you just know and will eventually forget? You guys said best friends forever, but is it really like that? Did you even care about my feelings? You guys just sat there laughing away while I'm right there. Talking to someone while pretending that I'm invisible. I really felt like I wasn't there. Maybe it's just me being selfish, but whenever you guys do that, whenever you guys talk about something I don't know, it makes me feel like I'm just another guy who gets left out.


You guys apologised. I forgave you, I really did. I have no right to blame you because I'm just being oversensitive. But after experiencing all of these, it makes me want to hide in my shell again. It makes me want to close up and seal myself from you guys.

We don't talk much anymore. Only during certain days when we have to meet up then will we talk. Only when there was something to do then would we talk. But even during the times we used to be such good friends, you guys didn't know much about me. Heck, I didn't know much about you guys. Even now, nothing changes. I don't even know what you guys really like. You guys don't really know what I really like too do you? No one except my family knows what my favourite food is. No it is not just waffles. No one except my family knows what my most hated food is.


There was another thing. Remember the things we would list down on facebook? My bests friends are...? I don't remember seeing my name on your lists. Not a single zhaoyan was there. Now how about that? Maybe I'm not one of your best friends. Or maybe you guys forgot about me, but that just makes it so much worse.


To a particular someone. There was a time when I really need a friend to talk to. A really heart to heart talk. I wanted to release these painful memories. But you shut me up. Yes you shut me up. I don't know whether you knew, but maybe it was me being selfish again because it was rather late at night and it was way past your bedtime. But couldn't you just stayed up a little longer? Just for this friend who was in so much pain? Couldn't you have just listened till the very end? Couldn't you? Maybe you found me annoying because I kept bothering you day after day. Maybe. Maybe you did stay up a little longer.. Maybe.


I guess I'm just selfish.


I feel rejected. Even among you guys. I know it's selfish of me, but I can't help feeling rejected. It's not fair to you guys because you guys have your own problems. Most of it is probably more serious than mine.


I will always be there when you guys are troubled. I will always be there when you need me. I will ask you if you're fine. But could you do one thing? Just don't ignore me. Even if you don't want to tell me, I won't force you. Just at least tell me that you don't feel comfortable sharing with me so that I will not be left hanging there.


To this group of friends now, I feel like we are drifting apart. Everyday I feel like the close bond we have is becoming thinner and thinner. I fear that one day the bond will be so thin till it appears like it isn't even there.


I don't hate you. To be honest, you guys are actually the best friends I ever had. After reading this, you would probably list me as one of those assholes. I don't blame you because I think I really am one. But know this, you will forever be in my heart, even when we are not close anymore.



Moving on, I have made friends with a few people. But sometimes I think that they just hate me. Or find me annoying. It's like they keep giving me this feeling that they're saying "I don't like you, go away" or "don't talk to me". Am I really that bad? What did I do to feel so hated? However, there are times when the same people who would come and talk to me, like I'm their friend. I really don't like being played. Am I your friend or am I not? Don't come and hurt my feelings all over again. If you don't like me, say it. If you don't want to be nice to me, then don't. Just stop pretending.


Today for example, one of them told me off. They wanted to build a tree of some sort. They couldn't come up with anything. I tried giving a suggestion. But I was ignored and scolded. I just wanted to help. But now I know, I should stop being nosy.

I'm an annoying shit.


Again, I want to say this. I really want to be friends. And we are friends right? Because from what I see, it's like sometimes I'm your friend but sometimes I'm not.



After all these years, I have been searching for answers, about my loneliness. I have so many friends, but why do I still feel so lonely? Everyone tells me to get a girlfriend, but that's not it. I don't need one, at least not yet. What I need is love, but of a different kind. I need love from my friends. I need true friends, who will accept me. I need friends who will actually care and comfort me. Friends who won't do things that will hurt me when they know it will. Friends who don't ignore and me and treat me as invisible. Friends who are proud to be my friend.


I know I sound very demanding. Is it right to actually ask for all of these? But if I don't say it out, no one will ever know..


Everyday I hope, I wish I would find a friend who can do all of those. But is there even a person who is like that?



I feel pathetic after writing this post.

what?

Hi I'm learning La Campanella..

It's a ridiculous song.

just saying :P

kthxbai

Music But Of A Different Kind

Hello. Have you heard of the band called Freelance Whales? Or maybe another band called Explosions in the Sky? Well all I can say is that they are A M A Z I N G..

Freelance Whales is a I don't know, indie kind of music? Well they sound like those folksongs where people play in annual village parties. And then the people dance around the campfires and start hopping till the werewolves find them and everyone stops. But, the surprising thing is the werewolves start dancing too and everything resumes..

Okay that didn't make sense.. but those songs are really awesome. Not only does it calm your soul, it gets you dancing too! Like really allows you to get into the song. They have a groovy beat too! ^^


Moving on, Explosions in the Sky is a deeper, subtle kind of music. No singing, just instruments. And damn the songs have a lot of character. Some are just quiet, some are depressing, some are really dull.. you know those kinds of music. Not many people appreciate this kind of music, mainly because it is not mainstream and it is not direct like the music you hear everyday.

Well actually if you listen it the correct way, you will find these songs very interesting. All you need to do is imagine. Yeah you heard me, imagine. Use your imagination, let it run wild. Search your soul for memories to fill it up. Usually I will find my emotions being amplified. From sadness to sorrow. From happiness to tears of joy. So use your imagination! (:

Well there you go, two different kinds of music. Go and listen to them and enjoy! ^__^"

Best Movies, TV Shows, Books, Musicals, Live Shows

Well, the title says it all! Not in any order of preference. (except maybe the year it was released in for the movies part)

MUSICALS/LIVE SHOWS
The Phantom Of The Opera
Voyage De Lavie
Swan Lake
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TV SHOWS/Anime
NCIS (currently following and is my most favourite show)
Criminal Minds (same as above)
Fairy Tail
Ouran High School Host Club anime
Heroes
Merlin
The Legend Of The Seeker
Summerland
That's So Raven
Pokemon (until the final episode of Johto League)
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BOOKS/MANGA
Fairy Tail

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MOVIES

Movies before 2008
Enchanted
Pirates of the Carribean trilogy
Star Wars episodes 1,2,3
Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
Love of Siam
Evan Almighty
Forrest Gump
Johnny English

Movies in 2008
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull
The Dark Knight
Journey to the Center of the Earth
Kung Fu Panda
Bedtime Stories
The Day the Earth Stood Still
Defiance
Hellboy 2
Marley and Me
Vantage Point

Movies in 2009
2012
17 Again
Avatar
Cloudy with a chance of meatballs
GI Joe: The Rise of Cobra
Ice Age 3
Monsters Vs Aliens
Night at the Museum 2
Planet 51
Push
Red Cliff
Sherlock Holmes
Race to Witch Mountains
Star Trek
The Surrogates
Terminator Salvation

Movies in 2010
Burlesque
Charlie St Cloud
The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Voyage Of the Dawn Treader
Despicable Me
Inception
How To Train Your Dragon
The Last Song
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief
Prince of Persia: Sands of Time
Resident Evil 4
Robin Hood
Salt
The Sorcerer's Apprentice
Step Up 3

Movies in 2011
Ip-Man 2
I am Number Four
Battle: Los Angeles
Johnny English Reborn
Thor
Pirates Of The Caribbean: On Stranger Tides
Kung Fu Panda 2
X-Men: First Class
Super 8
Transformers 3
Captain America: The First Avenger
Real Steel


All Time Favourites (The best among the list because each of them have left me a good impression of some sort)

Enchanted
Evan Almighty
Forrest Gump
Pirates of the Carribean trilogy
Star Wars episodes 1,2,3
Lord Of The Rings Trilogy
Love of Siam
Kung Fu Panda
Bedtime Stories
2012
Avatar
Monsters Vs Aliens
Burlesque
Marley and Me
Charlie St Cloud
The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Voyage Of the Dawn Treader
Despicable Me
Inception
How To Train Your Dragon
The Last Song
The Surrogates
The Day the Earth Stood Still
Vantage Point
Salt
Step Up 3
Super 8
Real Steel


*This post will be updated constantly*

As long as there is love, there is hope

Recently, I saw this Thai movie called Love of Siam.

I have to say that it is a touching show. There is some humour in it too. But it is so omg LOL. Overall I think the show is really nice. Come on, how often do you hear zhaoyan say a show is really nice? :/



Well even though the story focuses on gay romance, but I think that story is actually trying to tell us more about general love itself - family love, friendship love, love for each other.



Okay the story goes like this, two boys(Dong and Mew) who are neighbours are childhood best friends. However, Dong's sister went missing which affected his family. Because of this, Dong's family moved away. Then six years later, they came back and it is shown that Dong's father is a heavy drinker and Dong's mother has to take care of the family and also earn money. Also, the film shows that Dong's mother tend to control him because of the pain and love of losing her daughter. After a while, Dong and Mew meet up after 6 years and slowly found out that they have feelings for each other. And also at the same time, Dong meets a girl who happened to look like his long lost sister.

I won't tell you anymore, go and watch the show yourself ^^ (by the way I liked the songs in the show)


So in the show, there are many love triangles like A like B, B like A but C likes B and D likes A. Also it shows many elements of human life. It shows the struggles of family, friendship and love.

Many really good questions are also asked in the show.

If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it one day when we are separated? And if being separated is a part of life, and you know that separation is inevitable, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them? Is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?


Honestly I have no idea how to answer it. So you can go and think about it.



Also, the show also have some meaningful quotes like


"Even if we made mistakes along the way, it's better than never having tried to love and be loved"

"Life always gives us the opportunity to start over after we learn from our mistakes."


And I have to say that I totally agree with them and it really taught me quite a bit.



However, there was one quote which really hit me.


"As long as there is love, there is hope"



Our world is full of fear, hatred and money. There are no lovers nowadays, only players. What was taught about love was forgotten.


Someone once told me that our world was so different long time ago. She said that she would often go to this mama shop and secretly take some sweets when the owner wasn't looking. And they never got caught. I think that the store owner knew, but he just let them take the sweets. So why did he let them take the sweets? Well to be honest, I don't know the answer. But I think it is because of his love for people. He probably thought that they were just kids and let them take it so they could be happy. People and their love for one another was what brought them happiness.


Nowadays, it's all about money.. Whatever happened to the old days? We were all so happy then.



Well after reading this, you should probably understand what I'm trying to say. What we need in this world is more love. Love your family, love your friends, love your enemies because with love, happiness follows and the world will become a much better place.



As long as there is love, there is hope.







Picture from: http://www.flixster.com/movie/love-of-siam-rak-haeng-siam

Too Much Cell Biology?

This is what happens when you study too much cell bio..

Common Test Weekend!

zhaoyan's common test diet plan!

A healthy zhaoyan is a happy zhaoyan!

Well actually it is supposed to be a hungry kid is an angry kid or a healthy kid is a happy kid, but I guess my way works as well.. ^__^"




Oh and these are some of my protein drawings..

Well it looks crappy, I know, and some of the information might be a little wrong..(the tertiary structure and the quaternary structure LOL)



But who cares, as long as I can understand it.. :D


My art teacher like duh, but she would also totally give up on me because my drawings are beyond hope..

Gosh I'm talking to myself again.. x_x

Why walk when you can fly?

Ever wonder what flying is like? The truth is, anyone can fly, but they need to choose to fly in order to do it and the only way to fly is to become an angel.

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Angels.. ever wonder who they really are? No I'm not referring to the celestial ones, I'm referring to the human ones. Human angels, they are everywhere and they will always look out for you. It can be anyone, family, friends or even strangers.. It could even be the kid or the man in the train who gave up his/her seat for you when you were really tired or when you were really sick. So actually, we are not really that lonely in the world because there is always someone watching.. When you feel worthless or if you feel like shit, just know that there are angels always around you, and that they will always be willing to help you..



But the question here isn't whether there are human angels or not.. The question here is, are you one? Are you a human angel? Do you help others when they need help? Do you show your concern and care when someone is feeling down? Do you give your seat to someone who needs it more when inside a train?


It is a choice..


If you're doing it, then you are an angel to many people and you are actually flying..


If you're not doing it, then you should really start now because it would make your life so much easier. When you help people, people would also help you. Similarly, if you look out for people, people will also look out for you. Our life is all about caring for each other and helping one another..

Therefore, when you help or look out for another person, you become an angel, that is when you have wings and then you start to fly..



So why walk when you can fly?



















Image Source: jolitaasmara.blogspot.com

Stars in the night sky makes you dream

Why are there always no stars in the night sky in Singapore? Doesn't it make the night seem empty? You look up and you see a blank sky when you should feel like there is an infinite number of possibilities out there.

The truth is, when you look up and see thousands of stars, you have this feeling that every happy moment is everlasting and that wishes do come true.

Sounds pretty much like how any child thinks, but stars gives you hope and they make you dream..


So I have decided that when I grow up, I'm gonna live somewhere where I am able to see endless amount of stars every night in the sky..

Because stars really help to make you dream..











Image source: http://www.sciencefacts.us/how-many-shooting-stars-happen-per-night/

Lion King Musical Night at MBS! :)

Tonight is the lion king musical night! We all went to see the musical at Marina Bay Sands! Rawr!




It was great! But I can tell you what is just as great.. It was the food that we ate before the musical.. (It seems that all my posts are related to food huh.. Maybe this blog can become a food blog someday ^^)




So like the last food post, we went to eat japanese food... again..

but unlike the last food post, they provide a far larger portion!



So let's see what we ate!

Ramen!

Ramen!

Egg.. (Very very tasty)

Bamboo Clam!

Fish!

Egg..(Yep we had 2 servings+++)

Ramen!

Ramen!

Spoon? O__O


Oh and I forgot one more thing..

I wasn't supposed to take that but I found it so hilarious I took it anyway ._.




Yup and that is pretty much what we ate that night.. the food was fabulous! ^__^"
Great food + Cool show + Happy zhaoyan = SUPERFUNGREATNICENIGHT!

Now please factorise the equation.






Image Source: http://www.lunch.com/Reviews/product/The_Lion_King_musical_-Photos-1394517-The_Lion_King-132640.html?pid=0

Mommy's Birthday Bash! (Okay not really literally bash LOL)

This post is dedicated to one of the most special people in the world!


My mom!



No it's not a joke..




Today is mommy's birthday, and all of us came home to celebrate with her. I already feel so touched even though I am not her..





So to start off, we bought her a very special cake!


I present to you..

The Birthday Jelly Cake! Mommy likes jelly, so we figured that we did some modifications for this year's cake.. HAHA (hope you like it mom!) - It was all my dad's idea..




Anyway, moving on to my favourite part! The Presents! *__*


I got her a card which was split evenly among me and my bro!

And he got her some perfume(I think) which was also split evenly among bros..

My dad however, had his own card and present.

So to sum up, my mom had really nice gifts from us..

But no present can beat the love we have for each other, and I think the best gift my mom received is the love and care from her family! Happy Birthday Mom! :)

People Never Crumble In A Day

"People never crumble in a day, It's a slow fade.." - Slow Fade, Casting Crowns







I think that particular phrase is really meaningful. It talks about all of us.. People don't just lose everything in one day.. They don't just suddenly wake up one morning and suddenly lose everything.. It is the things they do which makes them lose all of it. It's the decisions they make which eventually leads them to that situation..



The decisions usually take a long time to get you in deep shit because it doesn't take one decision to land you there, it takes multiple decisions.. You make one after another, and that makes it a killer.



Now, you may think that you wouldn't land in that current situation no matter what. The truth is, you'll never know.. Some people don't realise that they are already on the road to their "doom" until it is too late. They were unaware that the choice they made was the wrong one. They weren't aware that what they did could lead them to the very place they were certain they wouldn't be in.. That is because they were not careful..







"Be careful little eyes what you see"




Temptation is always present in our lives, it often tempts us to quench our desire.. Therefore we are always not careful and end up seeing our desires, which is almost always bad..






"It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings"



If we start to give in to our temptations, then things would become worse. We would take it to the next level. We would further do something else to further quench our desires.. This is the part where we would no longer have control and we start going downhill because we find ourselves doing more and more things which eventually leads to us losing everything we had..




In these kind of situations, we would often think of ourselves rather than what we have now. We would not think about others. We would always think about what we want.. Therefore people act on them and do not realise the consequences..



These are the steps that causes people to lose everything, and it usually takes a long time for it to progress until the end.. it's always a slow fade, and not a sharp fall..




Maybe an example,

A boy had a few close friends. In school, he learned that there were two groups of people, the popular ones and the not so popular ones. He wanted to be popular so he would do anything to become popular. In school, people get popular by making fun of others and bullying others because everyone thinks it's cool.

He then decided to do all that was necessary to become popular. He started to turn on his friends and made fun of them. He became more and more popular because he had the bad boy image.. However, as his popularity went up, his relationship with his friends went down.. That relationship and trust was slowing breaking away..

After a while, they stopped interacting with each other. The boy became popular, but he didn't have real friends anymore. Everyone knew him, but was it really worth it? Sacrificing his relationship with his friends over popularity.. It seemed like the necessary thing to do then and he gave in to temptation to do it and in the end he lost his true friends..




Desires.. temptations... that's all that is needed to cause you to lose everything.. Therefore the moral here is, be careful where you eyes look, be careful what your ears here, and be careful where you walk, because you might come across something that tempts you. Even when temptation draws you, do not give in, resist, for when you give in, you are on a one way road to your own destruction..



Remember, people do not crumble in a day, it's usually a slow fade, and you probably won't realise it until it is too late..

Shangri La!

Ever been to Shangri La?!! It's like a hotel in town. I can't remember where but they serve really great food, especially the japanese restaurant there..



But there is one thing about that restaurant..






The serving size is so darn small..

Even the main course is miniature size -.-"

and the fruits were also not spared..

Okay I lied, fruits are always served this little..








But do you know what's the best part of the dinner?

The greens were also served in small portions! ^__^" little veggies = happy zhaoyan





Don't get me wrong, the size may be small, but the quality good! Shangri la japanese restaurant! (I can't remember what was the name of the restaurant)

Prehistoric Chicken Nuggets!

I didn't know my school sells nuggets.. what's better is I didn't know all of them were in the shape of prehistoric dinosaurs! Rawr!

Dinosaur 1

Dinosaur 2

















Aren't they just cute and awesome? But you know what is even more awesome? I added some facial features on them!

This is Jill

This is Tom

























Okay they may look a little weird, but at least they don't look that bad..



















Not like this..

This is Poopface.. LOL! Okay, this is gonna give people nightmares..





















HAH! I think this runs in the genes of my family. My dad also did something like this before. If I remembered correctly, his has sausages and bacon in them.

Bongoman! (I thought the name really fits him!)








Okay this is childish, but at least it's fun! ^__^"

This is how you stay ridiculously happy..

Inspiration~

okay I should be studying.. but heck that..

I'll just start my story now..



So while I was about to fall asleep last night, I suddenly had an inspiration.. Like how when you are drifting from this world to the other, you can hear strange sounds and see strange things?


Yeah I had one of those.. anyway, I got inspiration in music.. seriously, I could literally hear a tune, and other instruments and how they came together nicely.. No it wasn't because of all the songs I have been listening yesterday, this song was totally different. It was completely new.. and now I can't remember how it sounds like.. I hate it when that happens because it is always the same cycle(yes it happened many times before).. -- sleeping -- some music comes into my mind -- wakes up the next day -- amnesia -- .. it's as good as not having any inspiration at all..

So let's not care about that stupid thing because if I'm fated, I would remember them one day.. and then I would totally go crazy or be labelled as crazy like most of the ancient music composers.. since they hear tunes in their heads all day and their tunes aren't so simple like twinkle twinkle little star but like those where notes cover the whole page till some don't even make sense.. maybe I'll become famous, and everything I touch becomes famous too.. haha now that'll be strange..


Moving on, I decided to play the piano today. From exam pieces to random notes on the piano.. So I suddenly came upon breakeven(by the script), and remembered the tune of how a certain guy played it on the piano. Therefore, I decided to try it, since it sounded nice and simple, not like some where notes go like popiah and others where they duet with a keyboard on autoplay and you actually found out that the pianist is just playing the chords. So, I succeeded and it sounded close if not the same to what that guy on the internet played.. But it was just a tryout so it wasn't final because my dad wanted to watch his tv and I stopped..

Oh well, at least I am confirmed to have SOME talent in me..

HAH! Self praise.. very typical in my family.. it's in the genes I guess ^^

We are not and will never be perfect

Sometimes I just think that the human mind is not designed to be perfect.. Maybe that's the reason why we ARE not perfect..

Today, mommy got angry because of the durian smell.. But I think she isn't really angry about the durian part but angrier at the part where no one listens to her. But today I was a little angry with her because I thought that she showed an attitude over the durian.. which is A FRUIT. I actually wanted her to know that she was in the wrong because people only want to eat durians at home like how everyone wants to eat dinner at home. So the smell is normal and it'll go away so there isn't really anything to be angry about..

But then she was actually feeling really upset. Okay, then I also started to feel upset too because I didn't want her to feel that way.

Then when she went out for a walk just now, I went out to see if she was alright. She tried to hide it but I knew. I knew she was crying. I could literally hear her heart crying out for help. Suddenly I remembered the incident many years ago, where she and my brother quarreled over something which made her cry damn badly. When she cried, I promise myself that I would do anything to prevent her from crying ever again.

It's like a dilemma. It's like you feel that you need to scold her but at the next moment, you switch sides and need to comfort her instead. So now here I am, hoping that she'll feel better and hoping that my dad will go and comfort her. So what should I do now? Side with her and say that bringing home the durian was wrong or go against her and say that it's just a durian and there's absolutely nothing to get angry about? I don't know what to do, because both choices would make things worse.. If I do nothing, then the problem will forever be there..

All I hope is that tomorrow will be a new day.. and all of these will be forgotten.


Every decision we make is always a wrong..


Therefore we are not and will never be perfect..

Friends are like angels, there are always there, even when you don't know it..

She sat there, her face buried in her hands, crying while they laughed at her. She felt mentally worn out. For two weeks they have been doing things to hurt her, both mentally and physically. She couldn't take it anymore.



Stop crying you stupid girl, She thought to herself. Stop showing to them that you are weak. But no matter how hard she tried, tears kept flowing out like a leaking tap which cannot be sealed. The corridor had gotten really crowded. Everyone was watching, most of them were laughing at her because she looked like a fool with all the flour and tomato sauce on her. She didn't know what to do, she couldn't move or say anything because she was too overwhelmed.


Feeling helpless, she did the only thing that she knew, she prayed. She prayed for an angel. An angel that would come and save her.


Suddenly the area in front if her had become darker. Someone was standing right in front of her. Through the gap between her fingers, she saw the person's feet. She looked up slowly to see who it was. A familiar face, She thought. His name.. what was his name? She couldn't remember. Standing there in front of her was the boy whom she had met a few days ago.. He wasn't like the rest. He stood there with a wide grin but unlike the others, he had offered a hand.


"Take my hand," He said. "Let's get out of here." She reached out and he pulled her up and brought her away. Away from the crowd, away from the nightmare.


That evening, she sat in her room at home staring into blank space, still traumatized by the incident at school. Sitting by the window, looking out from her second storey bedroom, she kept replaying the whole horrifying situation in her mind.


"Hey!" Someone shouted. She looked down and saw that a boy was standing there by the roadside. The very same boy who had rescued her from the bullies. "Come down!" He had shouted. "I'm gonna show you something really cool!" She refused at first but he kept insisting. So she reluctantly went downstairs to see what he wanted to show her.


What was it that is so important that he wants to show me? She thought. Maybe it was something small, or maybe it was a chocolate? No it wasn't. He grabbed her hand and pulled her along. She had no choice but to follow.


They turned left, they turned right, they went straight and went uphill. They were in the middle of nowhere. It was getting really creepy and she started to wonder where the boy was bringing her.


When they finally reached the summit of the hill, there was nothing there. She felt pissed and annoyed. "Are you trying to make fun of me or something?" She confronted the boy. The boy then gave that wide grin similar to the one he had given earlier that day. He then pointed at something far behind her.


"Look!" He said excitedly. She turned and saw the crimson red sheet of sky with a bright radiant ball of light that was disappearing into the horizon.. It is beautiful, she thought. And for the first time in many days, she smiled.


Moral of the story: Friends are like angels because they are always there, even when you don't know it..

I am not so unique anymore.. ):

Today was epic! Well yesterday (2/4/2011)..



When I was eating Popeyes during dinner today, a woman kept looking at our direction. At first Melanie thought that the woman was looking at her, but she saw that the woman was actually looking at me. I denied what she said and replied that maybe she was looking at something else. But when i looked at the woman, she looked back at me and I was like.. "oh I better not look to prevent encouraging us." At that time I had concluded that maybe she was a pervert(sorry I am not interested in old woman LOL) or something so I joked with Melanie saying that maybe the woman thought that I was her long lost son. And true enough when we finished our dinner and were about to leave, the woman came and talked to us, explaining that I really look like her son. So we were totally shocked and I was like "WHAT I SAID CAME TRUE HAHA" She also said that her son was 16 years old and was studying in st patrick school.. hmm.. I think she hasn't seen her son for a while. Yeah why else would a person think that another person look like her son if she sees him everyday? Hmm strange, I don't think I should know.. And I don't wanna know either..

Man is this really scary, what if someone really looks like me with the same exact features and behavior? Haha great! So maybe I can be someone else! I can be john, or peter, or bob, or all of them at the same time.. Haha scary..

Never trouble trouble until trouble troubles you.. Unless things get serious..

Sometimes I just wonder what is wrong with some people. I just don't understand. When I was younger, my parents taught me this quote - "Never trouble trouble until trouble troubles you" and I thought it made a lot of sense.



But recently, we heard a fight coming from my neighbour's house. So we were deciding whether to call the police or not. There was a girl screaming and crying and the dad was also screaming. I pity them, really. I was like let's ignore it since it always happen. (sorry if I sound very cold hearted in this situation because sometimes I don't know what I should do) However on that night, my parents decided to call the police. At that moment I thought, "Whatever happened to never trouble trouble until trouble troubles you?"

I am really really confused. How do you know when to act and when not to? Sometimes when you help people, you only bring trouble to yourself but sometimes when you don't help, things get worse. Is this what they call being in a dilemma? When I help people, they blame me for interfering with other people's business. But if I don't help people, they also blame me for ignoring something that can be prevented if i did something.

So what should I do when someone is in trouble next time? Help or don't help? Zzz..

There's A Place For Us..

"We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above,
a world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,
exactly who we are is just enough,
there's a place for us" - There's A Place For Us by Carrie Underwood





I think that this song is damn inspiring. It just tells us to believe in ourselves and we can be anything we want. Sometimes we look down on ourselves because we don't think we are able to achieve our dreams. Sometimes we think that we need to change ourselves to achieve our dreams. But this song tells us that we don't have to do anything to change yourself for anyone or anything to achieve your dreams.

Just be yourself and believe that you are able to achieve your dreams and you'll get it. :)

Sometimes in life we just need a smile

While walking out to the train station today, I met this old man. He often takes daily strolls to the train station I recognised him because he always walked with a limp as I think he had some kind of a leg disability. So for some reason, I decided to greet him today since I recognised him. I went up and greeted him with a smile. He didn't reply. Instead he just smiled back at me and acknowledged my greeting and continue walking.

I felt damn good then. I just brought a little happiness to a person. Just one small deed and I probably have changed his mood for the day. Imagine this, you are going through another boring routine, and then something different happened. That's not all, someone smiled at you and changed your mood of the day. And then, you don't feel bored anymore because a person has cheered you up. Sometimes in life, we just need a smile because just one smile can change a lot in a person's life.

A smile encourages. A smile heals. A smile comforts. And also, a smile also brings about an element in life that we need - Happiness. Therefore we should smile more often and cheer up the mood.. Smile ^__^"

Cherish

Here is a story..



There was once a boy and a girl. They were very close friends and they grew up together. They would meet up everyday to chat, to play and to share their troubles with one another.

Then one day, the girl began to avoid and ignore the boy because she had heard some rumors about him. The boy didn't know what was happening and tried to talk to her. But she continued to avoid and ignore him and she didn't meet up with him anymore. The boy felt depressed and sad that the girl hated him. He then started to wonder about what he did to her that made her so mad at him. He eventually learned that there were rumors about him doing something bad to one of the girl's other friend. The boy then tried to explain to the girl that he didn't do anything, but he was always ignored by the girl. Every phone call was rejected and whenever he approached her, she ignored him like he wasn't there at all. The boy felt angry because she refused to listen to him. He also felt betrayed because the girl trusted her other friend, who had created the rumor, more than him, who was her best friend since young.

After a few weeks, the girl found out that the rumors weren't true and she wanted to apologise to him. This time however, it was the boy's turn to ignore her. She even went to his house to try to talk to him but the boy refused to talk to her. The boy knew that she wanted to apologise to him but he was still mad at her and wanted to ignore her like what she did to him. Realising that the boy wouldn't talk to her, the girl went home.

The next day, the boy received a phone call, it was from the girl's mother, telling him that his best friend was killed from a car accident while walking home the day before. The boy was dumbstruck and heartbroken. Dumbstruck because it was a freak accident, but heartbroken because he realised that if he had let her talk to him, she wouldn't have died that day and she also wouldn't have died knowing that the boy was still mad and has not forgiven her.

This incident had haunted the boy for years and whenever he looked back, he would blame himself and thought that he was better off dead because he had caused the death of his closest friend. He also felt useless because of all the things he did, he couldn't even do the simplest thing, which was to maintain a great long friendship with the closest friend he ever had.

That is why you should cherish your friends well because anything can happen everyday and you'll never know when is the last time you will be talking to him/her. Whatever problems that arises between you and your friends, you shouldn't blame and stay mad at each other. All the more, should not be ignoring each other. Instead, you all should just come together and solve the problem. When you found out that you are in the wrong, apologise immediately. When you know that someone wants to apologise to you, let him/her do it and forgive him/her so that you all will know that there are no more grudges held against each other.

New Zealand! :D (not your ideal holiday..but still..)

Yup I'm back from New Zealand.. and I have to say it was really awesome.. They have more sheeps and cows than people!

I'm telling you there are soo many cows that you cannot believe your eyes.. it's like cow paradise.. my paradise (i'm not a cow)
















Cows on fields..

Cows behind trees..

Even cows on other fields..

Well.. let's get over with cows.. anyways, there are many other things other than cows.. for example sheeps.. like this one..

Yes it's a black sheep and no they are not bad sheeps.. they are just unique! This particular one was incredible smart.. It knows how to pose.. When I was taking photo, it came up to me and put it's legs or hooves or whatever they are called onto the fence..
















smart



















Okay we visited many cool places too like farms.. we stayed in one and even discovered many things in there.. like

The Feijoa jam.. It's really tasty haha


















oh and the farm had these really big green bushes that act like walls..

Now that is what I call going green ^__^"
























Also, I saw a really ridiculous sight.. well not really that ridiculous

Ever seen a horse with clothes?

Well not really clothes, but a raincoat.. Well we need raincoats too so I guess it isn't ridiculous..
























Oh and when i was talking him(or her), a sheep also wanted to have its picture taken so i guess i shall just post it up.. (it's not very clear though sorry)

Alright moving on..





















We went to the shire.. (yes the hobbit place)


It was a really nice place but we couldn't take any pictures because I think the whole place is copyrighted or something..




























I am also glad to say that I have been to the Hellgate in New Zealand.. but since I stepped inside then it must be called hell because I think the gate was at the entrance..


And in the land of New Zealand, you would never expect to see these

That's just the outside.. On the inside, you will see worse things..

Welcome to the best hell on Earth because you are spared from all the lava..































Don't worry, you won't go hungry in there, you can still cook your food..

Those are not rubbish bins if you are wondering, they cook food in there.. so mind you..





























Oh and if you ever feel dirty, you can also take a bath..

Or you can have a swim..

That is of course if you are able to take the heat.. ^^























Oh and there are laws in hell too.. littering is not allowed..

Oh and if you realise, the sign behind says inferno pools which goes above 100 degrees celcius so ya once you go in, you will probably vapourise..

sublimate to be more specific..

Chemical Processes..




















Okay.. now the food,


The food there was incredible and I will tell you, it is of a much much higher grade than the food here.. and the presentation will leave you speechless..

Fish and Chips wrapped in old newspapers..




























Well not really that old, I took out some and found out it was that day's news.. HAHA






























Oh and one restaurant was really amazing.. they only have one menu

and they come up to your table and explain all the dishes to you.. haha not a good way for a decent menu in our country.. everyone just wants to slack.. But it's really cool because there will be different and unexpected dishes everyday.. cool


































But the strange thing about that restaurant..

their wallpapers and pictures are not really appropriate..

But the food was pretty good so I guess that's cool ^__^" It really attracts attention to people who don't appreciate wall art..